I am who I am

A grown up cocktail beverage down.........

I am fast approaching the anniversary of my mothers death. December 04, 1992 at 11:43 pm. I was 17, barely.
As I reflect on her life, my life and my family life I am filled with every emotion. My family was strong. I was raised with morales, values and God. I have not always followed His path, but I always go to Him.

I am not perfect, for no human is. I have hurt as I have been hurt.
I was 17, caring for my dying mother. Perhaps sharing what I have kept inside will help heal me or help you. Cancer is a horrible evil death. From the moment she had a fever until the huge lumps protruding from her belly and side. From her not being able to make it to the restroom and me grabbing the closest thing for her to go in.......

From her weighing 160 to 98 pounds. Her looking up and telling me she loved me. After the surgery to remove her right lung, as she lay in her bed, I laid with her....she grabbed my hand and every thought, word and feeling was in that touch. One month later she passed.

It is really sad because at 17 years old with a pretty picture perfect life up until that point one never thinks this horrible thing would happen.

My mother gave me life, she gave me love, comfort, wisdom, morales, values that I will now pass to my kids.
I  will always share my mother, their mamaw with them. It is my duty to make sure she lives on.

With this said..... Life is short. My mom was 39 when she passed. Hug and love your family and friends.
This is my thankful blog.....thankful that God ave me the mother he did.

Attitude----St. Louis Mo photographer

Give it to me 'C'

Little Miss Sassy---St. Louis Mo photographer

How I love her so.....even with a fever she rocked it!

This was about the 'I AM DONE' point lol

Then God blesses a womb----St. Louis Mo Photographer

May God bless you in this new journey 'A'

Little man

Little Leelyn is talking up a storm these days! His vocabulary list consists of the following:
1. Dog
2. Juice
3. Nana
4. Bye Bye
5. Daddy
6. Mama
7. Bubbah
8. Bane (blaine)
9. Shoe
10. Bye Bye
11. Touch
12. Nooooo
13. Ah Boo
14. Ni Ni (nite nite)
15. Eat
16. Yummy
17. Ower (shower)
18. Eat
19. More
20. Num (gum)
21. BaBob (spongebob)
22. Roar
23. Cookie
24. Open
25. Baby
26. Iss (kiss)

Thats all I can think of. ALSO- he is getting TWO molars and one bottom front tooth! SHEW TY Jesus

Five fact Friday

1. Got my lens, love it! I can't wait to use it for two shoots this weekend. It will come in handy for those tight spaces for sure.

2. Guests arriving next Sat. then we are headed to Illinois

3. Leelyn has been very challenging! VERY. We will definitely experience the terrible two's with this one.

4. I have 5 loads of laundry, three bathrooms and four bedrooms that need a good detailed cleaning----anyone? anyone?

5. It is a fact, I am pooped!

lovin my new wide angle EF 28mm canon 1.8

A morning with my wild thing!

Nothing like pop tarts, lil monsters and birds to start the day!

I cupcake you- St. Louis Mo Photographer

5 fact Friday, late are u surprised?

1. Craig left I am sad!

2. I have been shopping for a new lens, oh the pressure!

3. I finally have our wardrobe completed for our family pics. this weekend PRAY FOR NO RAIN!

I am probably buying a large canvas, black and white (of course) to hang over the fireplace. I wanted to incorporate our style which is more of a preppy alternative if you will.

4. Leelyn is speaking like crazy. The kiddo says all kinds of things, it just happened in the past couple of weeks AND he is actually getting his 3rd tooth, a molar! WOOHOO!

5. Family is arriving the 21st which means I will be stressed out trying to clean and prepare on top of the billion other things I have to do. Superwoman cape will be in full force as will pinot grigo!

The V family sneak peeks - St. Louis Mo Photographer

This is my third photo shoot this year with this adorable and gorgeous family. Might I add that mama is not even 4m post, doesn't she look GREAT! This is one of my favorite families for sure.

It's been a great time had by all- St. Louis Mo Photographer

I have really enjoyed our time with Uncle Craig. The kids have had a blast. I will miss it when he leaves us tomorrow-- which also means back to business. Craig enjoyed a concert, darts, shopping, trick or treating,  UFC, taking the kids to the park, and hanging with me of course ;-) Enjoy the pics.