Being a single parent

Has got to be the hardest job in the world to do! I am going on a short 16 hours, with another 48 to go! I couldn't imagine doing this full time, 24/7-365 days a year. I put Blaine down at 8 tonight and it was so hard for me to do this. His bed time is usually about 8:30-8:45 when it gets dark out. I could never put him to bed any earlier, I would feel horrible for making my son go to bed before it gets dark for one, and when he isn't even tired for two. I remember as a child having to go to bed early for punishment when it was still light out, I thought that was the WORST punishment in the world. Anyhoo, he says to me that it isn't dark, darefore it isn't bed time yet with those darn adorable blue eyes and his three year old voice/grammar, ARGH! Good thing he was pretty tired today since we were outside most of it.

I needed a break BAD! Leelyn has cried most of the day, as a matter of fact, he is crying now in his swing which is in my room and yes, I shut the door.

I have to be on the computer until Blaine falls asleep (the computer is right outside of his room) because he is terrified of the dark and his two night lights don't cut it! I have two more days and nights of this. Meanwhile, Brian is off having a blast in NC white water rafting, zip lining and a few other things with his friends! Did I mention he is being wined and dined in the evenings? Business my butt! HA - I keep looking at the letter he left me by my coffee cup that reads: I LOVE YOU and I WILL MISS you guys - hang in there babedidid, call me if you need to vent. Uh huh, and of course he doesn't answer his damn phone, LOL Yeah I probably wouldn't either.

Anyways, I have a new found respect for all those parents out there that do this alone. My hat is off to you!